where i’m at

Although creating is when I feel most myself, it also terrifies me at times.

Like many creatives, I’m a perfectionist who struggles massively with imposter syndrome. Even calling myself a ‘creative’ feels unnatural to me. Last summer, I made this website with the intention of posting album reviews fortnightly, and I made the zine with 0 expectations of myself as I’d never done anything like it before.

Now that I’ve completed that first project, the pressure is on (purely from myself) to make something better, more beautiful and more interesting. And I immediately hid away from posting on this website because I wanted every post to be high quality and interesting, instead of treating it as more of a blog. However, this year I want that to change. I’ll be posting more often, but the length and quality will depend solely on how much spare time I have on my hands and my motivation levels. I know consistency is key after all:)

Sharing creative projects with the world makes you so vulnerable, and I’m always afraid of failing but even more so of success and others having expectations for me to live up to. I just wanted to share that I haven’t forgotten about this website, my account or my zines, and it’s so normal to get overwhelmed with making things and running away from finishing them.

If you’ve been involved with zine issue 2, don’t worry, things are progressing and I’ll be in touch and making announcements across the month.

Keep an eye out!! And thanks for still being interested ♡

Freya